Right now, am currently thinking what to do regarding my oh so called FUTURE... am also wondering when will my dreams would come true. There's so many plans and goals to reach. My greatest frustration is when things didn't happen the way I wanted it to be so more often I disregard planning and just let things happen. Just like in Forrest Gump when Tom Hanks said My momma always said, "Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get." But oh dear, I would happier if most of my damn dreams would come true and not when am old but SOON *nyeheh* So, yep, cheers for all our DREAMS and GOALS!

the other side of me

If DA could kick out those not-so-active-account, I am probably one of them lol. Hmm... so what's up? I was just updating my portfolio when this sudden urge to write a new entry journal here came, so here I am *bleh*

About Work

Our company is having a major financial problem so there'll be a rotation of employees starting July (according to management). Blame the fu*king Recession that is happening all over the world. Though we, the creative team, isn't included in the rotation I still feel bad and sad. I sympathized with the people who'll be affected by the rotation. Some of them have kids/family to provide for... A part of that sadness is having no increase at all in salary *sob* I was supposed to have an increase you know but it was canceled for a while due to the circumstances. Unlucky me. Since there's no hope of that, I was preparing myself to do some part time job/freelance but it seems my faith is not into it (for a while *sob).

Why Faith doesn't seem 2 agree w/ me going Freelance?

Hah! First, this bank am applying for an ATM card really got me pissed off. When I first got there I showed them some identification cards (for it's required of course), my birth certificate and company ID. At least 2 identification is required. They gave me this list that showed what identification cards they needed. Birth certificate is not one of them, fine! So I went to our baranggay/disctrict hall to get a certificate (to show am a legal resident of the address that is written on my IDs and included on the list). I went back to the bank and flashed them my newly acquired certificate. Then the bank employee told me they needed an ID that got picture of me. I told them the certificate is included in the list and I never heard that there's such one with a picture! If there is such thing then the district hall would have told me so or put my pic at least. And besides, the certificate clearly showed am not a JOKE and not some hocus-pocus. The employee just stared at me and said "It's the rule, sorry Ma'am...". Keeping my temper on the safe side of the fence, I went home then the next day I went to postal office, applying for Postal ID (yep, it's on the list as one of the legal identification). When I got it within that day I was happy that I went bank to the bank with full of anticipation. I flashed (this time) the Postal ID and my company ID. The employee examined it and told me if there is any ID's I have. I told her "None. What's the problem? You only needed 2, right?" She said something about my company ID that doesn't seems to be a company ID! I mean what the f*ck! I am working in an Advertising Company so my ID is kinda one of a kind/creative. There is this my whole body picture at the back XD so maybe that's why she thought it's unusual and kind of Fake! I told her it's OUR COMPANY ID with a serious glare and don't-f*ck-me-this-time-or-else-i'll-kill-you (lol). Maybe she recognized me for I went there many times and got no good result, pitied me so she went to get an application form. "Yey! At last!" I thought. When I saw the application form, I went from being happy to disappointment. Goodness, why didn't I thought of that! Why didn't I bring a copy of my tax identification number!! Wahhh...
So I went home feel very defeated. Those days I took a leave from work were spent into nothingness. So in the end I got frustrated in coming again to that bank. I know am almost one way to attain the goal but sorry, I spent the money needed for opening an account ! And regarding about upgrading the hard drive's memory of my so-poor-computer has always been a PLAN but didn't happen for I spent my money (the money I saved wahhh) on some health issue.

And what is that HEALTH issue???

Last May I suddenly had this problem in urinating (kinda gross hehe but I wanna share ^__^). I took a week and a half SL (Sick Leave) from work. According to my doctor, I got Urinary Tract Infection . I paid the medicines, clinical exams & doctor's fee from my own pocket. I didn't asked my parents to help me shoulder the expenses (those very expensive medicines the doctor prescribed). Our house is under construction now and they needed money to pay the carpenters and to buy some materials needed plus the fact that my mom is also have a health problem. Her medicines is also expensive. So there... my savings for upgrading my poor computer were all spent *sob* I still have to return after one month in the hospital for some follow-up exams. I am now drinking 2 kinds of medicines thrice a day and I need to take those in 1 month. Sucks ewww! You know I hate medicines but I have no choice for there's a small stone found in my right kidney. It needs to be destroyed so that's the reason for medicines. I don't wanna experience again the pain I suffered those weeks. It was HELL. Really. Many times I thought am gonna die and I called all the saints to help me get rid my suffering lol. What I hate was my frequent use of bathroom to take a piss, I almost live inside of it hehe and of course the abdominal pain (the worst) I felt for three days then constant fever and extreme back pain. There were so many pains I felt and I thought I can't survive. I even asked God "Why meeee???!!!" Lol. Now there's no pain anymore (I hope it last, be totally cured) but am still under observation. I need to drink at least 3 liters of water a day lol XD

So what else?

Okay, I know this journal seems to be a novel for it's too long hehe but please bear with me. Just wanna give you guys some updates of my life. Hmm, am still addicted to ebooks. I fancy (as of now) novels about vampire warriors like works of JR Ward, Christine Feehan and so on. I suppose am one of those twilight fans who's looking forward about New Moon movie but totally NOT those super fan who goes Gaga/Crazy/Creepy like this people [link] and [link] I wanna see Jasper again haha (I dunno but he's the one I like in the movie, but in the book of course I like Edward better). Oh to those who want 2 read other good vampire novels, I highly recommended JR Ward works. The best for me. Go BDB! Hehe. I am also still a manga avid reader. I got excited by the latest issue of Naruto, I mean he's truly gotten stronger from a weak child to this very superb guy that Pain (leader of Akatsuki) believe/admire Naruto's undying faith in Peace and so on... So it's Sasuke and Naruto afterall in the end as I predicted

That's it, that's all for now! Cheers to everyone and ENJOY life to the fullest...

the other side of me